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Wednesday, January 16, 2008

no radiation...

yes good news, indeed.
no radiation - unless I wake up with night sweats in panic that i am not doing it. which i feel comfortable if the doctor says he doesn't think i need it then i dont think i need it... i mean i am already going to do chemo- what else do you people want from me?
the weird thing that i am wrestling with (wwe not wcw) is why i am not more rattled about all of this than i am. honestly, i have no idea. i really feel at peace with the whole thing. not to be too schmaltzy but i really believe that God is control of all of this so there is nothing to fear. i just need to get through it. but then i have also learned about myself is that when i go through something traumatic, i often do not feel the repercussions until months later... so, we'll see... if i decide to shed all of my earthly possessions in 6 months and move to the desert to be a pasta/glue artist, someone put me in therapy. (is that understood? i now have witnesses. you are all responsible.) until i snap and go off the grid - i am surviving... very well actually ( i even worked late the other night and wasn't tired) no doubt with prayer and support from all of you. and will continue to do so until i can't. what else can i do?

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Mallory family said...: Hells yeah! That is awesome news. I am so in awe of your strength (although not suprised, I've always known you were a tuff little PATA) and my prayers are with you every day. Hopefully that doesn't work against you...; January 20, 2008 at 4:13 PM

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the back story:

So, a couple of months ago my mother told me that one of my good friends growing up was diagnosed with breast cancer and was currently going through chemo treatment to shrink the tumor before operating.(side note about friend: we were best friends from age 5 when they moved in behind us in the neighborhood until middle school when we moved away- we spent countless hours together and our mothers are still good friends)
so when i found out about her it got me thinking that i had not done a self exam in ages - so a few days later in the shower i found it. i read some about tumors and felt sure that it was benign but went ahead and made an appointment to get it looked at.
a few weeks later i was in the dr.s office and he shuttled me down to radiology to get it looked at. he was more alarmed at the size of the mass than the odds that it was cancerous - so he felt it was better to be safe than sorry and had me to get a sonogram and mammogram that next week. he as well as the radiologist assured that the odds were good that it was a fibroatanoma (benign fibrous tumor) but again better to play it safe and have it biopsied just to be sure.
i hadn't heard back from the doctor so i assumed no news was good news. but i will never forget him calling me back - i was in the nashville airport coming back from our girls weekend and he asked when i was back because he wanted me to come in to the office. i told him preferred to know what was going on now since obviously it was bad news. he said that normally he would rather speak to a patient about this in person but under the circumstances he understood. he then gave me the diagnoses and some numbers to call the next morning to set up appointments with surgeon and fertility specialist.
whirlwind flight back that was canceled and resulted in me having a breakdown with the gate agent (poor guy) and i was forced to spend the night in DC wondering what in the world was happening.
i have since met up with my friend from childhood and she has been invaluable to me going through all of this and i hope that we can both support each other throughout the next months... it is just too odd that we are both within a week in age, have similar upbringings and have this diagnoses so close together. all we can think of is that we both licked the paint off the barbie dream house at some point (we were both huge barbie fans and that was the majority of our play time) or there was something funky in the creek behind our neighborhood. i do plan on doing more research on this because the similarities are just too much but for now i am blaming it on the barbie dream house

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Wednesday, January 16, 2008

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